a long exhausting day..

I spent a good portion of my day fighting with the insurance company.  Trying to figure out if Ellie’s chemo will be covered or not.  I finally gave up because of physical and mental exhaustion.  It is the most frustrating thing.  I also officially found out that I will need a new transmission.  It has been a rough day but Ellie did make my day when she said to me “Mommy, I’m saving all my money for you.  I know you don’t have any money for your bills so I’ll give you my money” what a sweetie that’s my little girl.  She is showing signs of being back.  Then she continued to say “You’re the best mommy I have ever had”

That put the biggest smile on my face because not only was that sweet but that was something My Ellie would say before this traumatic experience happened to her. 

Tomorrow is my Birthday.  I really don’t know where the whole Happy Birthday thing came from but it defiantly doesn’t apply this year to me.  I guess just have a birthday works.  I am waiting for my wish for sure.  I usually don’t blow out candles on my birthday but you bet your bottom I will be blowing out candles tomorrow and making the biggest wish of my life.  I can’t say it out loud or it might not come true but I’m sure the world knows what I will be wishing for on my birthday.

Thank you again for everyone’s love and support.  The love pours in daily via meals, words of encouragement, cards, prayers, and just simple things that people have done for us.  The community, friends, & family have really stepped up to try to make this as easy as possible and trust me it does not go unnoticed.  Unfortunately I do not have time to make thank you cards. I would be writing thousands and I need to spend the time taking care of Ellie’s needs.  But just know that I truly appreciate it and thank you in my heart of hearts.