emotionally draining day..

Today was a hard day for me.  The heat really took its toll on me today.  I also was asked several times how Ellie is doing.  That is always hard because I always respond with she is doing well, which on a typical day would be fine.  But today I had to go into detail with the speech therapist about Ellie’s future with speech and what the Doctors Expectations are.  Needless to say it took everything not to cry.  Luckily I was able to hold it in until I got home and was able to get away from Ellie for a few minutes.  It feels like years since January but unfortunately we are only 10 weeks in to chemo with a full year to go. Most people have a perception that the Chemo will take care of everything and we will be done after a year.  A year is just a starting point.  The chemo will not take care of the tumor a hundred percent as a matter of fact they are not even sure if it will even shrink it.  Unfortunately this is the best possible treatment we can do for her at this time. 

I have good days and bad days. Unfortunately today was a bad day.  I hope for a good day tomorrow. 

Chemo treatment number 10 here we come.