good weekend but not looking forward too..

Sorry I have not written since Friday, my mother-in-law was visiting this weekend.  We had a great weekend it was filled with allot of good times for the kids.  My dad took us to Irish Fest.  This was the first time my kids have ever been to a carnival.  They had a fantastic time.  We couldn’t stay too long because it started to rain on us.  We then had a family birthday party on Sunday and topped off the long weekend with a day of rest on Monday.

Today was a busy day for me I had a doctor’s appointment at the dermatologist.  I thought I was just going in for a checkup and the doctor actually removed two odd shaped moles and sent them out for a biopsy.  Like I said earlier there is no way they can be cancerous.  What are the chances that a mother and daughter have cancer at the same time?  Needless to say I’m not concerned.

Tonight was another rough Tuesday night.  I told Ellie we were going down to the hospital tomorrow and she cried and said she wished she was three again.  She said she wished she was a normal kid.  I held it together and just explained to her once again that we need to make sure that the bump in her head doesn’t grow and this is the only way we can do it.  She then sucked it up and said “mom then tomorrow is the last day right?” I had to once again tell her that we will have to do this for a year.  It kills me seeing her so sad.  I was able to hold it all together and not cry in front of Ellie but tomorrow might be a different story.  We meet with the doctor tomorrow and get to actually look at the MRI scans.  I’m sick about it.  Luckily my mom is once again going downtown with me. 

Wish us luck. Tonight I have special prayers that I can keep it together for Ellie tomorrow.