rough couple of weeks

This past couples of weeks have been very challenging.  Not sure if it’s the Chemo, her being tired, hungry and not knowing what to eat at every meal time.  Ellie has been extremely sensitive and every time it’s time to do homework or eat she has a complete melt down.  It is so frustrating and unfair that this is happening.  I feel like the best years are being stolen from us.  
 
This past thanksgiving I said I was so grateful to have her with  us.  Secretly I was thinking  wouldn’t it be nice if I had a secret Jeanie that would grant me a wish or  two?  I am so sorry I have not written in weeks I just wasn’t sure how to write that we have been struggling.  I try so hard to stay positive but this past week it has been very difficult.   Every time I tell Ellie anything she flips out and says “why you yelling at me,” and then the melt down begins.  She thinks if anyone tells her she has done something wrong, she thinks they are yelling and mad at her.  I feel as if we are walking on egg shells constantly. 
Anyhow I have been counting down to the day we go on our Make a Wish cruise.  I just need some happiness
and a break from reality.  

I  feel bad that this is not a very positive post but some days I just need to let it go. For now we just keep on 
praying and hope that this is temporary