Why.....

Today is a very hard post for me. Ellie has had her worst day yet at chemo. She was vomiting and lethargic through out
Chemotherapy today. It broke my heart to see her so sad and sick. She has had rough chemo days in the past but this one was different. She couldn’t even walk to the car she felt so sick. We are just resting and relaxing tonight and hoping that her stomach calms down sometime tonight. .

I often wonder, why it was her and not me
The little girl who was nice, was good, was sweet
The one who would honor, forgive and forget
Why her and not me, she is such a delight
Her suffering and pain, her fear and her doubts
Why her and not me, she doesn't deserve pain
Her beauty and grace, her compassion and joy
why her and not me, life is
so.................why?"

I put two pictures below from Chemotherapy today; one is of Ellie falling asleep in her bucket... The other one was when she just didn’t have the energy to make it to the car and just sat down in the hallway. My poor baby... Pray that this is temporary and that next week will be better.  Also prayers that this round of Chemotherapy is working.  We have
our next MRI scan on the 30th, I am very anxious.